The singer also opened up about how the MTV series helped her overcome her past “trauma” from her time in Fifth Concord, which was modeled on The X Consider 2012.
Brooke Ally is reflecting on his experience demonstrated in Surreal Life: Village of Secrets and Techniques — and how it compares to previous reality TV appearances.
In an interview with TooFab on the digital trip to MTV’s reality series, the former Fifth Concord member shared why her time on The X edition made her hesitate to hitchhike Surreal Life: Village of Secrets and Techniques.
“My reservations before were… I was anxious about not knowing anyone, about being filmed all the time about… how they might edit me,” Brooke, 31, said, “because I didn’t have a great experience with the previous show I was on, X Issue, and that left a mark on me.”
“However, at the same time, I wanted a challenge,” she continued, sharing more about what impressed her to join the show. “I wanted an experience. I wanted a journey. So ultimately, that’s why I ended up doing it, and I wanted to push myself out of my comfort zone.”
Quinta Concord — which consisted of Brooke, Camila Hair, Norman, Dinah Jane It is Lauren Jauregui — was molded into The X edition again in 2012. Cabello left the girl group in December 2016, and Fifth Concord went on indefinite hiatus in March 2018 to pursue solo duties. Brooke has released several singles, including several in Spanish, and she released her memoir, Discovering Your Harmony: Dream Big, Have Religion, and Achieve More Than You Can Imaginein 2020.
However, as she admitted in Surreal Life: Village of Secrets and Techniquesshe hadn’t fully opened up about her experience in the music world until now.
Along with Brooke, the present also stars Kim Zolciak, Chet Hanks, Tyler’s PoseMacy Grey, OT Genasis, Josie Canseco and Johnny Weir.
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On Tuesday’s episode, Brooke broke down and had a panic attack after seeing her castmates open up and get touchy. She stormed off the table hyperventilating and crying, and asked Posey to come back outside with her. Teen Wolf the star helped calm her down, before Brooke got candid about what triggered her anxiety.
“I’m not sure why I used to feel this way. It just hit me quickly. I think it’s hard not to feel like I have to be ‘on,’” Brooke told Posey, adding that she feels “protected” when she’s “on.”
“I’ve never really opened up about what I went through in the business, but it was just horrible,” she continued. “One of the worst things people can do and what they’re capable of doing, and it’s all out of greed. As an artist, there’s probably not a lot of things that you’re protected from.”
Brooke mentioned that she is “trying to be a voice” for others in the industry so that they “don’t have to go through what (she) went through.”
“I felt, at Fifth Concord, that I had to be ‘on’ all the time,” she shared in a confessional. “I had to mask my feelings, and it was just too much tension. It was just unbearable. And that kind of continues to this day in ways for me.”
She admitted to Posey that her “partitions (were) being damaged” by being on the show.
When speaking with TooFab, Brooke mentioned her experience in Surreal life helped her work through her previous “trauma.”
“I definitely have a lot of trauma from Fifth Concord. Just being in the business is brutal and people can be really downright horrible, they’re usually pretty awful,” she explained. “I really feel like in the ways that I did — when I opened up about some of the issues with Fifth Concord — I got a lot of affirmation from my castmates and I got a lot of encouragement from them, and you know, just even feeling the pressures of really feeling like you have to be ‘on’ all the time.”
“I opened up about it in the present,” she added. “I opened up about just trying to stabilize it and just being real and being open. So it was nice to be able to talk about it with a group of people who were trying, who understood you and who were just there to encourage you.”
When asked if she was completely satisfied with her decision to join Surreal life After filming, Brooke mentioned, “Oh, sure. Oh my God. I didn’t want to leave. I think you have to see this, but I didn’t want to leave at the end.”
Surreal Life: Villa of Secrets airs Tuesday nights on MTV.